Well, today started out as a good day. I had some kind of fun with my cousins. I had to come back to this hellhole once again. I think there’s something wrong with me, mentally. I know that sounds kind of crazy. It’s true. You may not believe it but there’s a few screws loose. I guess it all stemmed from childhood. I have a emotionally dysfunctional family. Which mean/entails that we don’t discuss our problems, feeling, or emotions. We just put on this BIG front like everything’s okay when it’s not. I hate pretending ! It has to stop. I realized that the reason why I’m so depressed is because I wish that I had a better relationship with my mom. I mean we do not get along at all. We’re always butting heads and we never agree on ANYTHING. I mean why can’t my mom teach me how to cook, clean, and why can’t I be able to talk to my mom about how I’m feeling? My friends can do that. I envy them because of it. I wish I had a different mom altogether. She tries so hard to impress other people that it’s sickening. Me and her are so much alike though. A big difference between us is that I don’t mind voicing my opinion but she does. She can be SO vocal to me, my brother, and my dad but she can’t say it to other people. See me, I can be vocal to them and to other people who live outside my home. That’s why I like the fact that I’m so outspoken. At least that’s something my mother doesn’t have as one of her qualities.
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