“. . Happy Go Lucky.”

I’ve always wondered how artists come up with the concept for their song & video. Some of these artists’ videos don’t even match the song. Like Pleasure P’s “Under”, that doesn’t even go with the song. He could have had Tia Mowry as the only lead love interest in the song and be done with it.

But No! He had to take it a step farther and make it into something its not. For some odd reason, I’m beginning to think that Maxwell is starting to be one of those overrated artists I failed to support. I used to be a HUGE Beyonce’ fan; shoot me. Still, at the beginning of her career, she was getting props where props were due.

Now, she’s just getting props because of her name. I guess even in celeb life, it happens. I just don’t like it. People tending to win awards and praise simply because they’re a household name. What about LeToya Luckett? Where are her props? I mean her & Beyonce’ started at the same time & place, but some kind of way Beyonce’ just happened to surpass her.

And no, it’s not because she’s a better artist, but because of who she is. LeToya Luckett is a great underrated artist, if I do say so myself. I’ve heard of the rumors about how Mathew Knowles tried to keep LeToya from performing at the BET Awards by not letting Beyonce’ perform. What kind of fuckery is that?

I’m just saying Beyonce’ could have stepped up THEN like she did at the MTV VMA Awards. Now, that was all her but she let her father stop this woman from doing what she has always wanted to do. I see now why he did it; it’s because he knew that LeToya probably would have outshined Beyonce’ & stole the show. I’m certain that’s what would have went down, given the chance.

“You won’t see me cry..”

So, I’m listening to the pre-Chris Rihanna. I hate to admit that I use to actually like her. Now, not so much. It wasn’t so much as her little domestic incident with Chris. It’s just seemed to me she was own her person then. Now, she’s biting FeFe Dobson’s style. It’s sad to see how the mighty have fallen. She’s gone from the top of the world to the bottom of the barrel.

Anyway, I’m kind of confused of my existence here on earth. I can’t even really explain it. I only understand that I have to finish high school, get a college degree, and do something with my life. But what? I have an idea but I’m torn between two of my dreams: do I go with the dream I’ve been chasing for as long as I can remember or the dream of what my parents want? I see that nowadays, it’s not what you LOVE to do, it’s what will make the most money.

Why can’t I do what I love and make a decent amount of money to survive. I’m a junior in high school and I was more sure of myself when I was freshman than I am now. I’ve fell off the face the world, slowly. I’m not friends with the people I was friends with in 9th grade. That’s a good thing; but if you feel like you and your old friends are on two different level in life, you’re automatically “stuck-up”. Even though we both know, I know where I’m going & you’re still not sure.